Saturday, April 7, 2012

Never Let Me Go...

I watch my children grow.. I watch my grown children change.. I wonder to my self what I could have done different. I can not claim that they are success only because of what I have done for them or with them. They are gift that God has lent to me and oh so many time I have failed them.. I try and pray that I do the best I can.
Shawn's face as he hears the song "Never Let Go" than he says I love this song it God Song..

I thank God for them.. all of them.. I see their smiles and makes the day a good place. I hear Shawn sing "Our Lord never lets me go, Oh No never let me go" It is what he needs to face each day.. to know to never" Let go of Our Lord"..

Even though I walk through the valley
Of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear

And even when I’m caught in the middle                                                          
Of the storms of this life
I won’t turn back, I know You are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming
For the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare

And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We’ll live to know You here on the earth

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

You keep on loving
And You never let go

Singing
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

Yes, I can see a light that is coming
For the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

I can see the light
Yes, I can see a light that is coming
For the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

So strong
So wise
So loving Lord

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

Oh, Lord, You never let go of me



because in Our Lord We find peace.. strength...
DO i have fear?? yes.. I also have Hope .. and when I fail I look to God and Know he is with me.. thru ever High and EVERY LOW...
I can't say that I never cry or scream, or ask Why?? why Shawn, why Kate , why is Mikey struggling?, why is Landon hurting, why have I failed, It is what God shows me and leads me thru it.. He never lets go.. when I am strong he is stronger, when I am weak he is stronger...
 
Kate's battle with JHD is not easy to watch, an even harder for her to deal with.... She is pushed and pulled in so many ways. She sees life in way I don't, and at times I don't understand. It doesn't mean it is wrong just different. It is working to find a middle line.. The struggle with it is finding where she is at. and truly hearing what she needs from us. To make choices that are hard and the ones that we need to find a middle ground..
I don't think there is a right or a wrong way...no hard and fast lines ...so we work with what we have. I ask questions and hope the choices I help her make are for her good..and I pray that God "never lets us go"